Trust | Synthsis

Hard hitting rock track. Dual screaming vocals from Brandon and Ethan.

Release Date: November 19 2004




“We learn, on the one hand, that we can not trust ourselves even in our best moments,

and, on the other, that we need not despair even in our worst, for our failures are


The only fatal thing is to sit down content with anything less than perfection.”

—C.S. Lewis

I’m a liar, I know, ‘cause I caught myself in the act.

It was my hand holding the knife in my back

and all the time you knew me, you knew the one I tricked myself into being


you never did know me (I didn’t know myself)

that I could turn a lie (into something I could convince myself it was so real)

I am the best at what I do (nobody knows how to)

manipulate me like I do

create my closest enemy (self destruct in synergy)

cause I’m convinced I’m innocent (wanting your trust so bad I’ll lie to me)

I’m a phony, but I didn’t know until I saw the mask

and I didn’t see the mask until I took it off and it was in my hands

conformed is the semblance of the coward to the old face he wore

everything I did and everything I was

an eclipse of the truth, in remiss I refuged in your trust

though repentance heals it, my true face revealed who I was

and nothing hurts like the triumph of a man against himself

it’s the sting of awakening by the mercifully made fixed pains of hell

cause the good I am I am because I have a motive that is bad

(the bad I am I am bad because I want what I can’t have)

and hunger so easily translates to justified chicane

(a prayer can wear the guile & corruption of a fiend)

so how can I find honesty? the lies I love destroying me

am I willing to go to the depths, (and digest my death)